"Its just the desire to feel wanted, to feel loved. "

so much emotions too tired to type it all out but

idk i'll just see how this goes. funny isnt it the last time i came her was a wed too. idk what you want. i dont know how to be a good daughter. idk how to be humane anymore idk i really dk. im just sorry im notup to your standards im sorry im such a brat. maybe you should have just gotten rid of me knowing im such shitass. maybe you should have just left me alone to die. just maybe but thats not it. it hurt me seeing you cry for the first time inmy life it hurt me seeing such vulnerability in your eyes it hurt me that i cause you to feel this way. i always said i have no idea how it feels like exploding i think today i had and it feels balls. its sadistic but it does feel pretty goood maybe idk what or how to feel anymore maybe im should just give up maybe i should just be rid and maybe youll have a better life. idk what do you want. im sorry im not the good daughter im sorry.

tonight is gonna pass by like im so tired i really dk all i fucking hope for now is that you dont release it on smeone else too cos just let one suffer its bad enough.