2012 is over? comon.

okay this is crazy and I don't like it:( 2012 well has been really I gotta say bad. prob one of the worst and most tiring years ever?

 

friendship.



 came into class with liying and super happy about it! continued going with the clique and all and until midyear I just couldn't and went away from wan er's clique. then liying and me together just fine and Rachel started coming with us! everything was fine until I screw things up again and liying felt it and left kinda thing. mabel came along and stuff happened again and now me and Rachel. so far, so good. and im hoping it will stay. funny thing is that, patched up with waner, definitely patched up with liying. things always become good for me. but still it was kinda shitty. all this time im the bitchy one that was childish and screw things up yet these gals still forgave me(?) that's just really im just really blessed to have this girls;_; great things tho, met wendy one of the gals that I really could easily talked to.  but this year friendship road was really rough had som really horrible time and to think of it it was all my fault. and I still get forgiven that's just. but I just I got my "retribution?" next year I have nobody at all gonna ch like loner and stuff since all our schedules are different and okay whatever. so yeap that's for me for being such a bitch this 2012. but of course the latter part of the year was pretty good since it was effortlesssnotmuch of a pain infact it was really fun. guess all the good things only comestowards of the end of the year and when we are about to leave each other we only start to learn how to appreciate yah.

 

academic.

well overall it was bad lol. math was the most disappointing tho and chinse duh. did prolly quite well for ca1 and when ca2 and ca3 and eoy came things got screwed and nothing really worked out well for math. Chinese, haha ever since s1, I did really bad but ive not failed until this year lol failed and that was really shitty. now just passing or getting a B3 is enough to satisfy me.8) but that's just life. science was fine and all except ca2 when we did chem 4/20 lol/inserts crying emoji face/ so with all that shit got below average and did not manage into a triple science class whch really sucks cos I wanna do triple science. /fire emoji/

cca.

this is prolly what killed me for the entire year and basically my confidence lol. it was so hard to accept that fact im noteven joking. knowing that i didn't make it into team for even just cdiv was shitty demoralising and assholish. iknew i wasn't gonna be in main7 but still and who knows 3 dsas got in ok. whatever. but I thought I did work hard and improved but whatever that's just life. thankgod tho with track it really helped in my cca record and worked hard for it and did discus which was acutally one of my newest likes(?) but then again that did nothing to my confidence level. still below sea level. idek when will i ever get that back psh. now however netball did in a way shortlist me for bdiv which is a friggin irony and track too but nothing is confirmed. but yaknow I guess my chance for netball is alr gone but since i didnt go for that training for track for 2 days I have a feeling my chance is gone too psh heard of cat sitting on the fence and when you want both, you lose both. we all have to lose something to gain something right. but whatever ok. BUT BUT OFCOURSE with shini nessa and chenyuan it was a lot easier theres no way I'll be able to have that much fun during trainings. really missed hem since we don't train tgt now:'( life.

 

 

family.

well im not gonna say since its pretty personal and im just hoping for the better next year, please.

 

 

well everything sounds so sad but okay happier things. like haha honestly Idk but the memories with Rachel liying and 2truth was really great<3 really crazy moments in this year!(:

 

this year was really crazy and well its just learnin how to getup from all those and stand up tall yah(: so just still, despite all, thankful for all that really(:

lovely galzxcxzxzxxcxzzxc

ok so apparently dear rachel song have been texting to ask me to stay home on 26 so i thought she prob is gonna crash and gimme christmas gift or sth.8) then she text me saying that oh go look from my letter in the letterbox so i thought oh no more crashing. was then randomly watching my youtube videos and there goes someone dingdongig the bell i was lazy so i didnt get up my mom checked burgt there was no one so honestly i got kinda creeped out and kinda thot maybe its them but yaknow continues watchibg my vids then dear liying with hee fanastic lies called me saying thatshe lost her way going to bennys house and im like you just posted starbucks tagging song and benny and i even BOJIO you all and yousaid youre lost hmm haha so i got out and these idiots stood behind the translucent glass thingy and dear benny's clothes was like so bright HAH😭 SO TOTALLY SPOTTED THEM BUT I SWEA I WAS QUITE SHOCKED OVERWHELMED KINSA THING IT WAS KINDA AWKWARD AT FIRST COS OF ME. yeap it was just me but it was fine after a while! heh made liyings nutella drink topped with icecream whipped cream milo powder and marshmallows, and i swear its really heaven. NO JOKE so good with prob a few thousand calories😭 BUT YAKNOWHAT LIVE WHILE WE're YOUNG RIGHT! WATCHED VIDEOS TALKE ABOUT HOT DUDES WHILE BENNY WAS MAD ABOUT MY SINK EARPIECES GAHAHA BENNY AH.;____; they had to leave at about 5-6 so it kinda sucked if only they came earlier AHYOH took pioloraids and bye gals. haha did crazy accent game at the bus stop embarassing and had so many bimbomtic moments;--; it was just super great and its reallt funnn😭 REALLY THANKFUL IDEK WHAT TO SAY they did crashbenny's house too.8) can imagine how she was reacting.8) BUT YAKNOW REALLY HAPPY AND GAY AND GREATDAY EVENTHOUGH IT WAS FRIGGIN SHORT:( but really awwwwww luvb you gals<3  cant wait for the next crash??8) super sad tho that song and liying arent the same class tho just totally got reminded:'( its okay we will B-O-N-D. yes;) okay side travk, finished watchingmy sop queen I SWEAR IT HAS GOTTEN ME INTO THE WHY-DO-I-HAVE-NO-GUY-FRIEND mood yeap sad life loner4lyfereeszxzzswdls BUT YAKNOW WHAT ITS OK I WILL CONTINUE DREAMING ABOUT IT IN THESE DRAMAS AND MAH LIFE WITH THESE GALZXXsxsxscsscsSVZVAC. okay yeap.8)  

ICESKATERS

 

this is delayed for shit years

 

HEHso went ice skating with song today all the way at STADIUM/kallang. thank god for me, since miss song almost decided not to skate WHUD. good thing we skate! its crazy cos i thought it was gonna be difficult! i was even scared of standing up! but it was really fine as long as you know how to rolleeskate? SO ITS GOOD. unlike me, dear rachel song feel 2 times;___; Its really really fun no joke and im just waitig for the next time i go again. HOPEFULY WE GET TO PLAY ICE HOCKEY NEXT TIME HMM ofcourse there were a few really irritating men going really fast and not caring whether would they get injured and there he goes, fell idk how and cut himself. blood on ice, not cool:O skate for 2HOURS decided to go for lunch and song decided to watch movie hmm. watched hotel translaskqvaiaaka however that is spelt and yeap;) the movie wasnt really good, i kinda expected more but WHATEVER(8 overall i really diffferent day with rachel since half the time we're out, we only shop.8) i swear i really wanna skate agin. would have done alot more if my knee aint aching. what sucks, its the other knee HO JOY TO THY WORLD. and theres a friggin friendly tmr that im not really interested about and my knee, im prob gonna be all mentally scared of it thus not being able to do my best which sucks cos theres no way you can NOT play if you were there unless you dont attend training hmm. but no joke, i think its the impactfrom always landing on my toes:( WE'LL SEE YAH

2 more weeks till school reopens, infact last than that so it really really sucks. and 2 more training till i shut this shit and hopefully go back to track. 

3 more days till i get my eoy holidays, FOR REAL. 

3 more days till the end ofthe world. LOL IM NT EVEN KIDDING I SOUND LIKE AN IDIOT BUT ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE OK. 

guess what came in mail;)

HOHOHO FINALLY ITS HERE SUPER STOKED SUPER EXCITED SUPER SATISIFED! IMEAN COMON its f21 after all! the paddig colour everything is so damn good its not even funny! and like comon all together i paying like 20 for a sports bra with good padding? YES OMGRIGHT. super great spree by yanting on livejournal spree galore AND DEFINATELY GONNA GET IT AGAIN DESPITE THE LONGER WAITING TIMEEEEEEEEE.
wear this for wednesday friendly i will totally be on fire8)

prayfornewtown

well idekwhy am i writing a post on this but its just really shocking and ok. that man that killed the children, 20 of them. he is ridiculously selfish. because of people like him, people in any parts of the world would feel unsafe and insecure and whatever. because of people like him, people are unable to continue, what really beautiful is, life. people like him makes the world such an evil place to live in. yes, its true. what the mayan predicted maybe really us destroying ourselves. people like him who do not cherish life and make actioons like this, he have no idea. reading every single post or tweet about it can make me sick, what about their parents. guns need to be banned and thats it. i really feel for the lost children and their familys and teachers and all and i pray for them.
and then this issue kinda make me reflect about life/ me and my reflections/
we should really really treasure our families and what we have. people in america live in fear, china, anywhere. but singapore, we dont. and thats basicallu cos we havent been thru it and since we havent, we'll prob do not know how lucky we are to be living in a society like ours. we complain about the smallest things. and we dont even realllly know realise how lucky we are. and our famillies they always do irritate us yes but nomatter what at the end of the day, family is always still with us. like what many said, we could have been the ones holding on to our famillies instead of those childiens.

LIFE

now problems always come together right. so yesterday got informed that netball actually wants me for the team, not confirmed but just shortlisted. firstly, why cant i get into C div but shortlisted B div, dont amke sense know. its like playing with my feelings;___; not getting into c div was like the 1st ever failure big thing in my life as exaggerated it sounds. 2nd qas failin chinese yaknow. now they want. mist cos cos of change in twachers idk? and then idk it just like shockin know. and obviously i dont want as much as and its just frustratin to know and obviously, no matter what, i will still work my best now that theres an opportunity, yes. but whether i get in is another issue. nobody knows what the future is anyways. then theres track. track wants me more but then youknow like that means that ive gotta gofor double training and mis leong said just 2 times a week. thats pretty craY considering that tome when we tried having double for the strategic, i didnt even play the friendly, i felt likedying. and then, like ofcourse i would wanna throw like duh. no matter what i did manage to give birth to some passion in it yaknow so at first i was all ok double then double. its another 3 trainings only. but then my mom is totally against it and im like i know its gonna be tiring i know its for my own good but i wanna do well, its about the points anymore know, its about the face and the mentality to get pass the obstacle. so at the end of the day obviously shes still against it so. hmm. wanted to talk to miss leong today but shes not here JOY i was panickig before training its not even funny. so told me ang ang and he said to ask if my mom allow a just ONE DAY DOUBLE TRAINING. and imean its just one day for the entire time. i think im gonna fight to out till i convince my mom which is really NOT ME. then had issue with the fact that nessa shini an chenyuan are no longer with me. it doe feel empty iknow theres still netballers but youknow the kinda bond i feel is not there as compared to shini nessa and chenyuan and im having a hardtime im just gonna try to bond and little and work my ass off more. then again, idk if im even confirmed for any of the twams. so now the only thing i can do is train really hard. did whatever beep test was the last, coach was like wth you better watch yourself stare;__; whether i think too mch or what, cross fingers i will do better. thats totally not my standard. stamina. then i rmbed, compared to everyone, im the loser netballer, so imust really work. and then class allocation. obviously im nt in the same class in song. but i trust in her ok. we will do anything to stay tgt can oneZ she love me too much anyways(8 ok jokes aside people tried to bring us down but youknow what gal. yo aint bringing us down(: TRUST IS ALL WE NEED AND IMWAN COMON its the 2 of us its quitwstupid if we seperate! and even if she wants to im gonna hang in there like idekwhat.8) that aside, im in J and like yes wendy benny and stuff but they all have their friends! wendy has charlotte AND WHAT ABOUT ME:( now im alone yes i can be the third party and frienda friends with charlotte too but YOUKNOW. 3 thingy is never cool. im just hoping i get to know charlotte more and stuff and hopeully, BOND. it just felt really shit yeateday. and yeah. life. at most i will jut be a nerd in class doing nothing but a good girl paying atention without any good friends now all i gotta really fight hard for cca. its really this 6 more trainings for netball. no matter what the outcome is, at least coah gave me a chance for BDIV which i think is huge since i didnt get into CDIV. and track, im just hoping they understand and if they want me back, I WILL BE MORE THAN GLAD TO WORK MY ASS OFF EVEN HARDER. its really no like i dont want double, it will be shit but i will try! And to really start studying. chinese OLEVELS next year!!! CHIENSE. tuition stared really gotta start getting into that moood. and yah. Hopefully everythig works well after tht impact i got all from yesterday oh dear lord.
oh and ps. will anyone produce money for me.

blogshop festival

heh so went to bloghopfes. with vip passes since rachel's luck is really good. THANKYOU. met at 10 at hougang/my sleep/ and headed to clarke quay8) it was funny how people were all following each other and stuff since none of us really know where it is unless you club hmmm. okay got in pretty fast since it wasnt exactly superb crowded inean not to tht extend of super but it was fine! wasnt really in the mood so didnt really get anything except a muscle tank. i totally need to stop being obssessed with them just because i look ok but yeah. while rachel was totally in the mood and got like a thousand of stuff. the stuff were not bad actually but just, thy mood and money werent theree. stop by plaza sing just to ge my auntie aune. luvb it. and ended up realising that auntie anne opened in ion. YES. headed to orchard ion for the h&m and it was sick cos it was so warm and theydidnt offer to take pic of us just cos we are kids. SERIOUSLY. ok the decided to et starbucks for the first time heh. its fine at first then it gets too sweet and stff. not gonna get it again and its a good thingggg. saw some lil boi boi dancig for that kinect(?) totally cute hahahha the gangnam style hip thrust was really funny😭 h&m at the other side and i think im starting to get obssessed with leather. thats bad. leather is not cheappppppppp boo. and beanie just dont fit me:( yeap. thats all lol. really tired tho must be from genting. tmr class chalet and im kinda notsure now that yaknow but ohwell we'll seeeeeeeeeeeeee