Frustrated about ccas once again. Ah stop thinking. Monday is the most important now. MOST

with love from my Omnia, Audrey

기광아 happy birthdayyy!<3,. Older and older each day. Stamina's getting bad right. Sigh. I am so tired right now but I decided to stay up late since this happens once in a life time. I really appreciate the fact that you are in this world. Without you, life without not have been the same. Without BEAST. you guys have brought so much happiness to my life. In fact sorrows, anger as well. But in the end, this are what makes me stronger. You inspire me. From AJ to now LEE GIKWANG. I love you. I have been a fan for 3years already, I have not gotten any attention from you. I am sad. But its okay. At least myself know that i am supporting you. People said you changed but i understand. You are tired. Seeing you with your schedules, it hurts. And your leg injuries. It feels like i know you personally. But no, i am just a fangirl. But i am satisfied with it. I just don't have the life of a lucky person, getting attention or what so ever. It is fine. I will continue loving you. One sided love. Be it that way. I love you baby. Please continue being that LEE GIKWANG. Don't change. I love you for who you are. This is translated from GOOGLE so it probably does not make sense and you probably won't care but it is fine. I still love you. I think i will never get a boyfriend because of you. Even though i am a fan of BTOB now, i believe that no matter what LEE GIKWANG is still the first, forever and ever.
Happy birthday Gikwang. Take care and i love you.
Anyways, I just had to rmb today. Not only its kikwang b'day, friggin ran 10 mins48 secs for 2km. FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRELIFE.

and his selfca, i haven't seen this real smile for years. Finally:')

My BTOB craze is driving me insane. they're awesome. Esp bias. Leeminhyuk. Sings, rap, dance, adorable, and got abs;O but one thing is friggin annoying the hell outta me. The people around. I go crazy over btob the only thing they say is forget about beast alr ah. Whatthehell is wrong with the society. Why are you people so 2sided only. Can't it be tgt. BEAST WAS MY ONLY FANBASE. FOR DK HOW LONG. ATLEAST 2YWARS. SINCE SOOM DAYS, MULA. youthink its so easy to giveup a group?! And when you people start infinite-ing or other grouping but youwere still a b2uty, DID I FRIGGIN SAY YOU FORGET ABOUT YOUR ORIGINAL FANBASE. stop it okay. It doesn't make sense. I'm not quitting a fanbase, IM JUST BARELY JOINING ANOTHER ONE. Beast been thru so much last year its not that easy to stay with them for so long. But I did. I din giveup. Coz they inspire me. They din giveup despite being called recycled. And now just cos BEAST is not active, im fangirling over BTOB, its wrong?! IDK about the future, no one knows, but BEAST WILL AND IS STILL MY FANBASE. BTOB IS A RISING FANBASE. NOTHING ELSE. do I even infinite mblaq?! I'm just a casual for them. Rather than some people casual everyone then only haeccore beast. Its not gonna be easy. BTOB AND BEAST. BUT IM SURE, I STILL LOVE BEAST. this world is getting outta control. People are judging. People are thinking whatever they think is right. people aren't thinking in another's pespective. Its difficult but atleast stop the annoyance. BEAST AND BTOB, I CAN DO IT<3

Omg hahaha most memorable:
grandparents gigantic hahaha cutelol
My mom going crazyyy GAYING hahaha
AND THE SKY WAS SO PRETTY DURING SUNSET. FIRST TIME OK.


with love from my Omnia, Audrey

I'm posting alot these days;o
ANYWAYS, got the jersey. Forget about the past. I still love them. But for now, this is it. I'm given the opportunity I give it my all. Nothing less than 100%. I'm determined.

with love from my Omnia, Audrey

Tried out curls!(: slept in and it turned out pretty fine!(:

with love from my Omnia, Audrey

Things that makes your eye happy;)

with love from my Omnia, Audrey

Sighs. So I have gastric problems:( having gastric flu. vomitted this morning couldn't sleep last night at all:( what a great start for term2-.- and prob gonna miss training on wed and Fri. What to do with my discus:( and comp is 2week later. Please recover soon ah:(

with love from my Omnia, Audrey

Wow. My banana muffins 8) hehe

with love from my Omnia, Audrey

I just had to lol. Its pretty 8)

with love from my Omnia, Audrey

Okay nevermind

Omg hahaha okay after realising I can use my email to post know what I ain't migrating anymore hahahahahahhahaha

with love from my Omnia, Audrey

decided to change to wordpress since blogger doesnt provide uploading service from phones:(

http://audreyified.wordpress.com/

Track camp

So I'm back(: track camp was fine it's a lot of talking and reflecting. Well it's the team. Nationals, that's it. Umma gonna prove it. Even tho I'm dreading cca tmr, but still, I'm gonna train hard. FAITH OVER FEAR. What I hope to achieve at the end of the comp, no matter what results, I wanna be able todo this; FAITH OVER FEAR

for lunch today went to this awesomeeeee resturant/food court japanese like thingy called ISHI MURA. omg first time. its awesome(: its not really say super ex but its fine(: i likeee!!! the mango yakult is just asdfghjlk. thanks to shini's recommendation 8)

okay anws track camp tmr! buddae is odelia!!!(: hope to have an awesome tinme! praying that no one gets injured and let the team bond(:

Cookie(:

Ok first time ever baking!!(: turned out well in the end!! Soft Choco cookies! Shall try sth like banana bread of sth someday lol(: training intensive some more starting tmr! Allthewayyyyyy

this is so precioous hahaha hes so cute. "seriously???!"

OVERVIEW OF THIS WEEEEK(:

AMANDA'S AMAZING RECIPE. HAHA SHES SO FUN TO SIT WITH I SWEARRR. SO MUCH IN COMMON

SCIENCE PROJ FINALLY SUCCESS

TOO HAPPY WE HAD TO RMB THAT MOMENT 8)

HAPPY LAMA, SAD LAMA, MENTALLY UNSTABLE LAMA,  PAPA LAMA, MAMA LAMA, KISS LAMA, MOOOZZZZ 

dont judge 8)

okay term1 is over. thats too fast. TOO FAST. well, everything is in the first pic. 

happiest time this term : beautiful show. duhhh. 

saddest moment: not getting into schoolteam.

first throws competition, they would like to call it friendly match-.-, after like 3 trainings. all i can hope is the best condition and just hope lol. all the best. dont make them regret their decision. 

and everything i can ask for next term, bonded with track peeps and most importantly, 

LET THE NETBALL BOND REUNITE.

should i give up this fandom.

this sucks. My sudden withdrawal is killing me. All of a sudden I just start emoing cos they aren't here anymore. Why are they doing this to me. Is it cos of the music that's why im emoing. Why am I like that. I don't even know if im a hardcore fan, since im not rich and all I don't buy most merchandise I feel like a useless b2uty. What's the point of fangirling to a group when you don't spend your whole life on it. Am I even hardcore. Am I even casual even. Am I even worthy to be a fan of theirs. I fangirled for so long. Since 2010. Two years. From shinee to beast I experienced all kinds of shit. Be it jonghyun dating junhyuung kikwang smoking yoseob being sad all those incidents, I still bare with them. But its so much like just 表面上 the thing. Ugh. Reflective mood again. Hard to fangirl lol. Yeah maybe im harfcore but does anyone care, I don't buy their merchan, I only concert. I'm a useless b2uty. Yeap.

Whatever even if people has to say that of me, so be it, I'll be thickskinned and continue koving them. 

imissthem.

imissthemsofrigginmuch

why am I like that. Get me a boyfriend and maybe I won't be like that lol.  

Maybe if I quit, I'll be fine, but its difficult. But as much as i dont want to quit the fandom cos I meet so many awesome and nice b2utys, maybe all the problems and troubles are coming from the fandom as well? I'm very 矛盾 right Now.

But im prettysure eventho im emo Kia now, I won't quit the fandom.

Lol why am I writing this crap. I just had to ok back to Chinese bye

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first pic of the day!(:

the queue in front of us could have been nearer but we were nice so(:

hohoh rubi nailpolish frmo angel1(: painted hers really badly tho 8)

my face look so skinny here 8)

beehoon from vanessaaaa

merchandise vann

hohoho concert started

best pic of the year lol

this could have friggin been eyecontact until i was slow and he friggin closed his eyes

this close. no zoom up.

kiwoon my lifeeeee best pic memory of the year

i thot the firework very cute lol

awesome peeps i went with(:

handsome manager that smells like a flowerrrr

met new peeps, celine ( celine and laura ) told them my awesome jokes from crystal lol

kikwang first to come out i wasnt even ready yet;_____:

testing out my cam at the hotel

cant see much but dongwoon';s back view was just asddfghjkl

so late liao

watched beastairlines till 3plus?!(:

precious chingu:____;

the raglan that i din get to wear cos i din bring shorts ugh

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

fav pic of the day lol

cried while hearing them from outside cried when i entered cried when they start singing almost everything son cried when it was the end cried when i left the hotel cried today in school in the morning cried when doojoon tweeted and said that they left:(

 

so it has been a long journey from buying the tickets to queueing to seeing them to leaving them to missing them and to cry about them. but this is all worthy. cos i love ma boys. eventho i din get any fanservuce its fine i had fun atleast. and they din abs. its okay. and im happy for all the b2uties that gotten fanservice, pictures poloraids and everything. this feels like a dream. thankyou beast<3 as i continue withdrawal, i pray that they will have the strength to continue perofrming in the dif countries, stay healty, safe, happy and most importantly, feel that they arent recycled group, they are BEAST. BOYS OF THE EAST SEARCHING TOP. honestly, already there. im proud of them<3

i love them even more everytime i see them.

i cry over them everything more.

i love them more than ever after crying for them.

i realised that i really love them.

i cry, i bash, i spazz, i hate, i miss, in the end its still leads to one thing:

they are everything i can ask for. 

i love beast<3

(many pictures "creditted" to angel )