Now, its the last day of April and im getting shit again. April has been horrible. Horrible shit really. My keys. Didn't bring them, again and again. Reflected started bringing it. Now today I forgotten again I really dk what shit am I doing. Dissapointing. And my phone bills. Seriously. Why is this shit happening. Its me right. Being really irresponsible these days. This month has been super dissapointing for my parents and myself. Its horribleshit since im not really a person like that. Really time to reflect. I need a solution. I need to do something rather than just randomly saying I'll change. "actions speak louder than words" do something. I NEED TO FIND SOLUTION. all I can hope for is that may would be a better month. No im gonna make it a better month. I cannot be rebellious. I'm gonna take in all good pointers. And I have to stop this shit. I dont wish for it to stop. I'll have to make the shit change. And idk CA is coming, I NEEED TO DO WELL. Started on revision am I gonna get shit results again. IDK. No more dissapointments. My life is getting messed up screwed up cos of all this little things that dissapoint people the shit outta them.
I just wanna say sorry to my parents who I have been creating so much problems. Shit has to stop.

•Last day of April. May a new start. A new me. No more dissapointments. Lets go•