life

you know when everything just crumbles all at once and you have no one really to tell how you feel cos it suck balls and just everything i try to try so hard to solve the situation it just becomes worser and nothing goes well and just when everything comes tgt and make life feel like its unmeaningful and just fucking hell like why must it all crumble. im fuking sensitive and i really cant. must it really be that way. when someone attack obviously they have mo idea about what the person is really actually going through. not just smiling makes anythig better. im just i try ok. i had trust and i totally lost it. ok i get it you dot want a 3 person friendship ok ill not get in your way anymore and then another one that i love but i relaly have no idea how to express my feelings for cos its hard and just life is fucking miserable and shitass. and just suck balls and its just difficult. and just just idk it feels like sec1 all again and just crumble everynight and just it justsucks alot and just failure in life. everything is not alrigjt ok really it isnt anymre. sometimes ya we have our happy times in life but sometimes it just doesnt work out and life just seeem like a fucking failure. im not doing welll cca is foolish crap again friendship problems which ive never expected and its so hard to face and then home. like thats the ficking horrible combinaion youcan get thats like what else do i have nothing but myself. it stress yaknow. stress like when everything comes tgt and you just keep it in one day everything will explode. youthink i wanna crumble infront of you no idont cos i know it will hurt you cos i know you love me but at the end of the day dad im really im just going thru somwtime for my age is very difficult and i have a ducking ca to take this week and this kinda shit like wtf this is not what i want. ir jusr makes me reflect so much about life. what have i done wrong. maybe every step in my life was a wrong step. and please i god beg you to stop argueinf cos its fucking annoying and i cant even study anymre. i cant i jst cant and the days that i look forward coming home its all gone now wth. i really appreciate it i really do but how do i expeess it you tell me i just just i guess this is life right. i just hope it gets better