2012 is over? comon.

okay this is crazy and I don't like it:( 2012 well has been really I gotta say bad. prob one of the worst and most tiring years ever?

 

friendship.



 came into class with liying and super happy about it! continued going with the clique and all and until midyear I just couldn't and went away from wan er's clique. then liying and me together just fine and Rachel started coming with us! everything was fine until I screw things up again and liying felt it and left kinda thing. mabel came along and stuff happened again and now me and Rachel. so far, so good. and im hoping it will stay. funny thing is that, patched up with waner, definitely patched up with liying. things always become good for me. but still it was kinda shitty. all this time im the bitchy one that was childish and screw things up yet these gals still forgave me(?) that's just really im just really blessed to have this girls;_; great things tho, met wendy one of the gals that I really could easily talked to.  but this year friendship road was really rough had som really horrible time and to think of it it was all my fault. and I still get forgiven that's just. but I just I got my "retribution?" next year I have nobody at all gonna ch like loner and stuff since all our schedules are different and okay whatever. so yeap that's for me for being such a bitch this 2012. but of course the latter part of the year was pretty good since it was effortlesssnotmuch of a pain infact it was really fun. guess all the good things only comestowards of the end of the year and when we are about to leave each other we only start to learn how to appreciate yah.

 

academic.

well overall it was bad lol. math was the most disappointing tho and chinse duh. did prolly quite well for ca1 and when ca2 and ca3 and eoy came things got screwed and nothing really worked out well for math. Chinese, haha ever since s1, I did really bad but ive not failed until this year lol failed and that was really shitty. now just passing or getting a B3 is enough to satisfy me.8) but that's just life. science was fine and all except ca2 when we did chem 4/20 lol/inserts crying emoji face/ so with all that shit got below average and did not manage into a triple science class whch really sucks cos I wanna do triple science. /fire emoji/

cca.

this is prolly what killed me for the entire year and basically my confidence lol. it was so hard to accept that fact im noteven joking. knowing that i didn't make it into team for even just cdiv was shitty demoralising and assholish. iknew i wasn't gonna be in main7 but still and who knows 3 dsas got in ok. whatever. but I thought I did work hard and improved but whatever that's just life. thankgod tho with track it really helped in my cca record and worked hard for it and did discus which was acutally one of my newest likes(?) but then again that did nothing to my confidence level. still below sea level. idek when will i ever get that back psh. now however netball did in a way shortlist me for bdiv which is a friggin irony and track too but nothing is confirmed. but yaknow I guess my chance for netball is alr gone but since i didnt go for that training for track for 2 days I have a feeling my chance is gone too psh heard of cat sitting on the fence and when you want both, you lose both. we all have to lose something to gain something right. but whatever ok. BUT BUT OFCOURSE with shini nessa and chenyuan it was a lot easier theres no way I'll be able to have that much fun during trainings. really missed hem since we don't train tgt now:'( life.

 

 

family.

well im not gonna say since its pretty personal and im just hoping for the better next year, please.

 

 

well everything sounds so sad but okay happier things. like haha honestly Idk but the memories with Rachel liying and 2truth was really great<3 really crazy moments in this year!(:

 

this year was really crazy and well its just learnin how to getup from all those and stand up tall yah(: so just still, despite all, thankful for all that really(: