okay just feeling reflectiveeee8) okay anyways cca. damn idk idk if its tiring but the feeling to anticipate training sucks. and idk why am i even dreadin track now? idk its the drills man its frustates me how im so slow now? i cant friggin sprint the way i sprint idek whether is it cos of the exam break, my knee, the thinking that if i sprint i will injure my knee what so ever shit, it makes me feel weak. and itotally dontwanna use my knee as an excuse to not train cos duh, selections are soo damn close. and like ugh had to train discus alone on monday like whud no attention at all and only the last part of training i realised i was doing it all wrong and only the lat part did i realised. and after the longest time in my life, 2 netball trainings in a week. well, i didnot play against pmss? idek if its a good thing or what lol. seeeing that tall girl that i defended and probably offended last year, HMMM, I was scared to death, plus im not even in team that makes me even more loser lol. idk just my damn speeed:( played a short game with the netballers within tho but, well, its just not good enougj:( and today goddamn, never have lunch before training! who in the world would know that we were gonna get 6 suicides today wth my whole stomach was like an earthquake like wth i want to cry:( well at least i finished all 6 idek how:O did game and i was just confused horrible passes! BUT THEN AGAIN, why do i care lol. im not get into the team anyway. cant even fight with s1 im thinking of fighting with the s3? but anyways its just, maybe netball trainings arent as bad as i thought it would be, gotta say, i dont hate it afterall? its just UGH SO IRRITATING OK8) JUST gotta fight for track so badly, like its more likely but the mre likely you think you'll get in, the dissapointment will be huger? IDK SO I CANT WISH TOO MUCH. im just gonna live and train with the do-the-best i can attitude WHICH SUCKS COS IM NOT GONNA GET INTO TEAM EITHER WAYSSSS;____; OK SERIOUS MATTERS. my batoost feelings are like fading each and everyday and idek im searching so much about one direction an obviously eveyone is a directioner? but i think its more than that:O like idwanna "commit" to another fandommmm NOOOOOOOOO OKAY whatever just more obsssessed about this two twins, jack and finn harris omg seriously im not a angmoh boiboi craze girl BUT THEY ARE LIKE ASDFGHJKL ilike(; just, WHATEVER MAN HEHE.
JUST, lastly, most importantly, will my damn period come now. I CANT LET IT COME WHEN THE SPORTS TRIP STARTS:( IT WILL RUIN ALL THE FUN AND LIKE UGH:( praying every single day lololol. please come soon my desr period. like i know you love me so
please come before 10 or 9 LOLOL OK THATS A LONG POST OK
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